My issue is that I start with enthusiasm but just after a few ashtapadis , mind is already somewhere else , in memories of past or anxieties of future.
If I recite within my mind, it gives more anand as in understanding and relaxation but soon my eyes get heavy and body becomes slumber.
If I recite physically, my tongue gets tired or I find myself reciting too quickly.
I have gone maximum 3-4 days of paath and then the cycle breaks . Its saddening but I try to do it each time and keep falling.
Keeping up with 40 days is tough I must say !
I love sukhmani sahib when at times we're given emotionally stirring descriptions of god's power :
"Haran bharan ja ka netr for" (He gives and takes back within blink of an eye)
and my favorite
"Jaa ki leela ki mit nahi. Sagal dev haare avgaahe" (That whose plays knows no bound, even gods have grown weary searching for him).
Such pangtis provoke a very grand yet loving image of god in our hearts.
And at times pangtis like
"Bhagat janaa ke praan adhaar" (the basis of the life force of his devotees).
And ofcourse the ashtapadi 21 of nirgun brahm.
I think its these dare I say favorite stanzas that keep running in my head all the time lol. Maybe someday I will complete 40 days of my paath soon.
You know it hurts the most when you are looking at the number of ashtapadis remaining and how close you got to 24. Its like a slap on your face because you feel like you're just parroting . I want to reach that stage when I am reciting sukhmani sahib and I don't know how when it got completed also
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